Trauma is not just something we experience but also things are parents and grandparents experienced. Trauma gets passed down through generations. When the generations before us don't heal from their experiences, we are left with the consequences. This includes guilt, shame, the need to help others, the inability to help ourselves, poor boundaries, and broken relationships. You aren't responsible for fixing the past, you are responsible for fixing the present and to help future generations not start from a fundamentally broken place.
Breaking these traumas, curses or patterns (however you label them) is a difficult task. You are strong, you are powerful, and you are brave. Most days will be difficult, but they will get easier, and at the other end is a beautiful shining sun and endless possibilities not just for you, but for the next generation. You are a superhero.